A combination of thoughts that end up in 3 years of suffering

Before continuing, know that this is a stupid story of a guy and the stupid things that happened to him.

You already may be wondering about the title itself, what is it about? Ok, ok, that's kinda weird but true.

Guess what, if you believe me, this is actually the worst and the worst phase of life, that's what this story is all about.

The better you understand things around you, the more you are prone to get into a situation like this, that is capable of ruining everything.

If you are thinking I am talking about me, you are probably wrong, I am talking about everyone who... who has life, consciousness.

Being conscious is a lucky thing, but not always, there could be millions of people on the earth today who may be thinking why life chosen them, anyway, who knows.

Ok, the real story is about the boy, whose name is Erik. He is a good guy and was living his normal life until one day all of his life got trapped in the world of a signal negative thought.

Negatively was spreading like a fire inside him, the extreme, unseen, torture totally messed his life. He even stopped meeting with friends, going outside, and always try to avoid activities that were once fun.

Positive thoughts were being converted into negative.

Guess what, just nothing, because the thoughts that started war inside his head are pretty nonsense, he can not understand what is happening, the brain is now thinking and keep thinking about the bad situation that will happen if the current things were not corrected or solved. The brain is lying and the living system of Erik was getting into chaos mode.

People also started hating him and he barely enjoyed any moment of life, traveling, adventure, music, love, job, studying, all seemed like nothing.

You really will never understand the pain he suffered for years. Remember, when two opponent meets, both will fight each other, but when a body gets into the fight with itself, its apocalypse for that particular one.

Days were gone, new days have to come, those also have been gone.

Then he tried to get help from friends. All of them were never understood what he wants to say, they said, just be happy and continue to be a part of life, but the victim, Erik, is really fucked up at this point. He had no choice, he wants to kill himself but eventually, he survived.

He didn't kill himself because he knows that everything is normal, and at the same time, his brain was in totally opposite, messed up, mode.

Several months have gone but the hope is still there. And finally, after 3 years of intense chaos inside his head, now, he was getting normal and slowly he chased back the track of his life.

Do you know, what is left? nothing, he is dead from inside. The 3 years is nothing but end up in pain and suffering. Why this happened, what was the point, nothing, it just happened itself, and that's how life works.

He is now living a life completely without any feelings, the only friend he has left is emptiness.

Those years that once felt like a living hell, is now his nightmares, forever.

The only fault he has done is overthinking, which he has no control of.

Remember, anybody can get into a situation when he/she has no control over it.

He can't control his mind because it keeps lying and telling something is wrong, eventually, nothing is wrong, this was just normal intelligence that duped his brain to believe something is really really bad or gonna happen, we gonna die, but in reality, everything is ok.

Even if he never killed himself, he started hating his life and its fucking mysteries.

Yes, life is unfair.

Remember, life is filled with shitty phenomenons, wait until you discover one. But that's rare.

But he lived and that's the point. Suffered for nothing. What a waste.