Poetry
Bagpipes and all
A poem about waiting for change
Things we don’t talk about
Keep hidden deep inside
Where we quietly cry at the repetitiveness of the why?????
Just can’t move beyond it, it comes back to haunt me time and again
Hold inside with all your might
Contracting to prevent the leak of the fight
Splinters seep out when you least expect
Who are you in this moment as you try your best to contain your lament
When things aren’t going your way, the barriers are left and right
When expectations aren’t met like walking in shoes that are too tight
When the daily grind gets your knickers in a twist
Or Bloomers bellowing like a tantrum full of hot air puffed up like a cat's tail floating in mid-air
To release the constriction of your lungs until they are empty
Forgoes the catastrophising and all that made you tetchy
It’s true
Some days are easy
Some days are not
Sometimes I wish time would just stop
With time to breathe and take in more light
Relax my shoulders and release all impingement that prevents my arms from the fight
Let go of the stress and maintain movement
It is a cautionary tale to take on board, a person of peace is never unskilled at war
It is one thing to make the mistake of knocking on the wrong door
But another to take up residence in the living room on the floor
in someone else’s shadow someone else’s dream
Spending time in the wrong room feeling only the emotion of sorrow and those inside screams
Pouring all of yourself into a vessel just too shallow
Overflowing puddles on the floor and the longest night of the soul no string to your bow or a winning score
To wonder what you’ve done with your life but the minutes tick on
It is not yet over and a new day will dawn
There may have been a heartbreak with just one gut punch
But I’ve learned it is best to dance and dodge like the honeybee does
There are so many other things you could have tried or been
But just one arrow can pop the dream
Starting over and making new plans
Places to visit and people to get to know
So don’t delay and on with the show
With any hope of a glimmer
Step through the darkness of the night
To find the boldness of morning sunlight
A beacon of hope to shine through your open window
Bathe your wounds in the warmth and bring celestial love to the shadow.
Yes, there is time, time to try something new, tick another box and renew
The faith in what might be possible
Spread your wings and just be unstoppable
That’s what I’ll do when I get up tomorrow
Gain some momentum and embrace being phenomenal
I can do that, I’m sure I can
Just step out into the world seeking a likeminded clan
Bagpipes and all, if that is what it takes, let change make the difference
And here’s to whatever it takes.
