A Surrender Prayer During Divorce
In the days after moving ahead with a divorce, I prayed in church. I asked for God’s help to surrender any impediment that would make the divorce process more difficult and hurtful. I asked for his grace to surrender selfishness, desires for superficially making things right, and trying to save face in any ways that weren’t meaningful to gaining freedom and healing.
This is the prayer that God gave me. The words poured forth and came through my fingers. I simply took dictation.
If you are similarly facing the opportunity to finally break free from an abusive relationship, may these petitions of surrender be a daily comfort to you as they have been to me.
A Surrender Prayer During Divorce
I surrender . . .
My ego
My expectations of how things will be
Needing to prove that I’m right
Attempts to seek validation
The need to feel vindicated
Telling everyone my side of the story
The history of what I’ve tried to do
My declaration of having loved her all along
My compulsion to share the details of everything I’m thinking or feeling
My impatience and anger
Allowing myself to become easily frustrated
Internalizing things that I can’t own or that can never be changed
Fearing the uncertain
Being uncomfortable with unease
Worrying about everything
Never protecting myself to sacrifice for someone else
Trying to anticipate every possible scenario
Trying to manage every process and person
Taking responsibility for others’ feelings
My desire for efficiency and simplicity
Expecting everything to make sense
Needing for everything to make sense
Trying to fill silence
Pointing out when something has already been said
Taking things personally that I know aren’t true
Needing to respond to claims and accusations that will never matter
Trying to refute arguments being said just to be saying something
Selfishness
Thinking that possessing any one thing will significantly impact my life
Any moment where I’m not being courteous
Anything that stands in the way of being kind and gracious
Amen.
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