In reading your thoughts on your quest to sobriety, I am taken back by you blaming alcohol and the alcohol industry for your alcoholism.
As someone who is celebrating 57 months of Sobriety, I have come to understand, Living a Life of Sobriety, I was simply addicted to a Lifestyle! All my choices were mine and mine alone. It was up to me to take full ownership of all my choices.
Once I accepted my choices are my own, the path was clear, I had to replace my past Lifestyle with a Lifestyle I could enjoy.
So the question I asked myself, how do I wish to die? The answer is with A Sober Spirit! The answer is the path as to how I will Live my Life! Enjoy!