A Christmas without you
The First Holiday Without Loved One Message You Need To Know
It is never easy
This is my first Christmas with Phi Phi and Crocker. It will be my second without mom. Like all things, I can’t remember what I did last Christmas. On New Year’s eve, I was sick.
My feelings this year are mixed. I’m excited for Phi Phi and Crocker. I prayed that my November earnings will be great and it was, for which my heart is full of gratitude.
But not a day passes by that I don’t think of mom, and Christmas was her favorite holiday, it was a time to forgive and forget.
It’s the time of the year when we were always OK. I’m at my loving best, and she was as always like most moms are — the best.
And last year, there was nothing to forgive or forget.
Mom wasn't there to welcome me back.
Christmas 2022
I was thinking of putting up some Christmas decorations, but that didn’t happen. Maybe next year when we moved to a new home. I might as well put it here, my dreams for next year.
But I already have something planned for New Year’s eve.
And then a few days ago, my male cousin died.
