“I forced myself to sit when I didn’t have to, and no longer dreaded the prospect.”
It had been a while since I faced desires to leave. Consistent progress and the delights of…
I felt a wave of hellfire resonate throughout my entire being, like every ounce of blood in my body had been replaced with molten lead.
“For the rest of the afternoon, I was able to immerse isolated parts of myself, sometimes all but my ears, into the pool again. Yet I never experienced it on the same…
Was this it? Was this salvation? Was some terrible emergency back home liberating me from my struggles?
For the first time, hearing the first bell of the day was a relief. 4AM was no longer a challenge, but an…
“That night, I was visited by a host of most vicious temptations and distractions from the Path.”
By now I’d grown confident with ānāpānasati, emboldened by my progress the previous day. Focus and…
“I sat on the edge of my bed and visions of doom danced through my…
I woke up much too late with too little time to accomplish everything I ‘needed’ to finish before…