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Aug 3, 2022

I just want to be okay.

***Warning: Post about suicidal ideation. I am fine and seeking help. (this has happened to me in the past due to a post I put on here and…

Nix

May 17, 2022

Over & Under

It’s so overwhelming. I’m always under.

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Jan 10, 2022

Alignment.

It’s hard doing all this scientific work because as I listen to music, all I want to do…all my body is telling me…all my heart is telling…

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Jan 7, 2022

for you,

I’d take all your love, all at once, always.

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May 20, 2021

Happy Mother’s Day?

Welcome to my brain on a Sunday morning. Happy Mother’s Day? Life is weird.

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May 9, 2021

I’m not okay.

I feel weak. defeated. insignificant. worthless. invisible. incapable….

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Mar 18, 2021

Feeling all the feels

Went to Kroger and bought myself ice cream because…

Dec 26, 2020

Dec 26, 2020

how does one continue?

I wish I could be clear.

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Nov 19, 2020

Questions. Meetings. Validations.

I’m highly accomplished

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Oct 10, 2019

I’m tired — autopilot.

I’m tired. of. it. all.

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Oct 8, 2019

Anger

I feel like i’m drowning in someone else’s bath water.

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Aug 1, 2019

To the person I hurt today:

As always, i’m sorry.

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Jul 17, 2019

Summer 2019 = fuck ups

You ever royally fuck up? But pretend it never happened?

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Jul 17, 2019

I’m at a shit place.

Currently, I’m struggling to start working on this heartworm project again. I can’t decide if I hate the work i’m doing or…

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Mar 27, 2019

7 questions to find life purpose…fill out later

Mark Manson’s 7 Strange Questions That Help You Find Your Life Purpose

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Mar 27, 2019

556 Days

It’s amazing how long a feeling can last.

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Feb 28, 2019

Restless

I’m in a very restless place. I think too many things are going on at once. I’m falling behind. Again.

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Feb 21, 2019

I’m so overwhelmed in a different way*

*super long post of me just typing for 30 min straight.

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Feb 19, 2019

PAIN

I currently have a weird urge to feel pain. I want to feel physical pain.

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Nov 16, 2018

You ever wake up saying, “This is it”.

I want to feel happy for more than an hour. But most importantly, I want to remember it.

Nix

Nov 15, 2018

My apologies to those who have seen me at my best.

You ever start your day thinking, “fuck, I didn’t get everything I needed to get done yesterday, BUT…”

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Nov 13, 2018

Just exhale

Things are constantly going up then quickly down. Am I just more used to these feelings of uncertainty?

Oct 29, 2018

Sep 28, 2018

raw

my inner thoughts.

Today was a shit day