Medicine

Dusk before dawn

Confirming bias

Stress test

There’s nothing like hardship to show you the cracks in your life that need attending to. It’s the ultimate stress test. Like adding physical increasing pressure to square areas of different materials of life’s stresses and struggles will test your vulnerable, unsteady parts of your life revealing the…

Death’s door

Today Dad and I talked about trajectories. Something besides the strokes. I reminisce on when I was genuinely suicidal. Mental illness and mental anguish is nothing to be denied or dismissed. I had recently failed neuro anatomy at that time and was reconsidering discontinuing school after trying so hard and…

Pop and Circumstance: Burden and Transparency

I think my family values my life more than I do, and I think I know why. I’m not idealistic and constantly ask myself what all this living is for. I used to live for my education….I used to live for medical school….The stroke killed all that. The…

Pop and Circumstance: My second stroke of med school.

I burst into tears. I had come to and come to the realization that I had not passed Step 2. I couldn’t graduate just yet. Why do I keep going? How am I still here? I had survived…TWICE. I apparently did it wrong the first time and didn’t…

The First Time

There was that one scary time I realized I was stroking…the first time

Pop and Circumstance: The First Time

“CAN’T SEE THE NET OF NETFLIX, BABE. I’M HAVING A STROKE. WE NEED TO GO TO THE ER.” I yelled to…