Birthday
Hey I am stressed
Sometimes I feel dumb
Maybe should have heeded Josef’s advice
Look I feel paranoid
Mind is a thousand places
Talked to the girl from her
She told me her sis is getting married
I told her, maybe me and you could be next
She laughed and said, maybe someday
I was really bothered by that
What is that supposed to mean
Do you want me to open a door for you to walk right out
I’m not even too close to my family
Every day that my own mother is nice to me feels like a huge trap
Don’t call me Habibi
And my dad is just always disappointed
Everybody takes up mental energy
And time sending you mixed signals
Guess I’m just gonna keep improving myself
At least in other places there are rumors around
That I’m so weird
Some loser
Some basket case
Some outcast
Oh, you got so far
Remember last year
Work hard
Where is the confidence
Movie script
Where was that
Look, I just want to sit and talk for hours
About the pain I go through
Man I talked to my family today
And a few people
Felt mad embarrassed
Birthday
I’m way too nice to people
Should be more negative
At least I get
I’m nervous
It feels all the time that I’m on the edge
But reality needs to sit in
My time is valuable
I’m a stud
I’m special
Ok casanova
Sometimes I look at the cup as half empty
Always seem to do that
Trying to search for the negativity
Even when it seems like there’s none
Gotta come up with a plan
Mind is really very clouded
I went to sleep and got lazy
Good start to a birthday
I don’t know
Should have done better
People are counting on me
I wanted to not let the thoughts race
Kinda need a vacation
I could see that
I could do better
But my mind is a bit clouded
Growing up doesn’t feel too real anymore
Anyways fam
Yeah
I guess
That was my birthday
Should I start a woe is me party and celebrate
Birthday
Yeah I guess it was my birthday
