Day 000 — Weight Loss Timeline Prologue
Today, on December 11th, 2022, I will start documenting my weight loss journey.
I’m starting this to hold myself accountable, and hopefully help others too.
[12–11–2022]
Day: 000
Date: 12–11–2022
Weight: 250 lbs
Age: 29
What’s relevant to this, is my weight loss background. I was born pretty small, like 4 lbs. I grew up with traditional Asian parents, who raised me with a traditional Asian upbringing, which is quite a rough style of upbringing to say the least. They don’t really show much emotional support, so their way of caring for you was through things like food. So, this increases the chance of your brain associating selfcare, not with relaxing, exercise, walking, stretching, talking about it, or any of those things. Your brain associates selfcare with things like food and buying things.
And that’s what happened me. Combine that with the very much non-empirical style of child rearing that consists of hitting your kids when they get B’s and C’s in school or for pretty much anything, I started to stress eat in middle school, and I have had a stress eating issue ever since. But I discovered fitness, dieting, and exercise during highschool and there has been a battle between these two parts of myself ever since. The physical and mental desire to stress eat when undergoing a stressful period in my life, and the desire to be healthy and not have my body ache. Food had essentially become a drug for me, from a very young age.
With this legacy of putting massive amounts of weight on and off. I would spend one to three years with a healthy weight, then stress eat myself up to being overweight or obese due to a decrease of my quality of life or a stressful life moment.
A great example of this is the pandemic. At the beginning of the pandemic, I lost a ton of weight, due to my job becoming remote. It gave me more freetime to cook, exercise, and sleep. I lost 50 pounds really quickly. I got alot of attention online because of it, my body felt really good, it was nice waking up from bed without sores, and to have the energy for friends and my passions. This time was amazing, but only lasted a year and a half.
But then a stressful job search started in the summer of 2021, my rent increased, I had personal and family issues arise, my friends got busier, and I ran into money issues. Additionally, my new job I got was really stressful, I allowed myself to be overworked from, to the point where I spent less time with friends. I would stress eat from all of this and not only did I regain the 50 lbs within a year, I gained an additional 20.
So in the span of 3 years, I went from 225 pounds, to 175 pounds, and now to 250 pounds. My body is harder to move, I have stretch marks, my eyesight has gotten worse from the blood pressure, I’m tired more often, sitting hurts, I have low self esteem, alot of clothes don’t fit, I wasn’t able to be shape for two weddings I went to, and I haven’t been side hustling as much as I want to, in order to address my financial hardships.
I feel really ashamed of myself and embarrassed, especially since I’m turning 30 next year and to me, this weight represents a failure on my part to have had a fulfilling past decade, because when I was kid, I wanted to spend my 20s in a healthy way.
I then found out, I wasn’t the only person to have gone through these cycles. So I figured, I would document myself not only lose weight, but also rework my relationship with food and how I deal with stress and take care of myself. To not allow myself to be overworked, but to focus on my passions and to use my lifespan and time, in the way I want to. I want to learn more about health, and also to test myself and overcome my limitations. Not only to hold myself accountable, but to hopefully help others too.
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Day 000: https://medium.com/weight-loss-timeline/day-000-12-11-2022-weight-loss-timeline-b215a3c2ad0d
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