Do you ever just think back on how far you’ve come? Today, I did. And it was magical 😻
I went out for a walk this morning with my mushroom coffee and appreciated the knowing that I will have this house paid in full for my mom to retire in very soon.
Over the years, we’ve put so much into this house- installing ceiling fans, tile, baseboards, electrical outlets, pulling out carpet and wall panels, painting…and now, for the first time EVER, it will finally be finished.
I’m SO proud of all my mom and I have done here prior to construction!
What a wild ride 😅
In the early Spring of this year, she moved out, I moved into the master bedroom, and now 2/3 of the house are gutted out. I get to watch over all the details as this two-years-in-the-making project comes to life!
For months, I haven’t slept well as with construction and the house settling, there are a MILLION random noises that happen throughout the night. Thank goodness for earplugs! (These are my favorites 😍 #ad)
And then, a blessings in disguise…
A concussion knocked me down last week. HA! With recovery, less screen time, LOTS more reading, and about 60+ hours of sleep clocked in one week alone, I’m feeling pretty much caught up! 😜
But really though, I’ve gotta say…
Living here during construction has been quite the journey of self discovery.
Since we officially began construction in February, I:
▶️ launched my online AlphaZen Academy,
▶️ coached in a 90 program with a team of amazing coaches and players,
▶️ took 7 trips in the span of 90 days,
▶️ facilitated 6 guest events for a personal development company,
▶️ did karaoke for my first time to conquer my fear,
▶️ reconnected with two family branches I didn’t grow up with,
▶️ and launched a monthly Jedi Mindfulness Training program on the beach.
And while I’ve been in bed more this week than I have in months, the gratitude I have pouring out of my heart for this overall journey means everything to me.
It’s most likely part of the reason I’ve been able to heal so fast too!
Smiling from the heart
As I walk this neighborhood, everyone smiles, says good morning, and waves as I pass. It’s like a crazy scene from a feel-good movie where neighbors joined each other for coffee and borrowed a cup of sugar.
I don’t know any of them personally however, it’s amazing how friendly people are when I smile from my heart and not just my face. Like they are just vibing on my inner joy. 😄
If you haven’t tried it, and you wonder why people are afraid of you, DO IT.
In honor of acknowledging the healing work I have done from past trauma, I passed by the house my step-mom once lived. The one where my father first went when he left us in the house I’m in now.
I was 6…and it’s so distant in the past that it doesn’t even feel like it was part of MY life.
As I passed that house, no sad feelings remained.
I’m healed. And whole.
And not just in this moment…ALL of the identity pillars I’d created around that event are healed and reframed. Life will only go so far as I’m willing to shed my layers.
There is no room in my life for dead weight anymore. Thankfully, my results prove that. I’ve broken up with the old me and I like me better this way.
With this viewpoint, the world looks clearer, brighter.
I watched the sun rise over the trees and gave thanks for the perspective I have now.
A few blocks later, a crossing guard avoided eye contact with me while saying Hi until she realized I was crossing the street…she jumped up to guard me with her sign and make sure I had safe passing.
Felt like God jumped into her body to say “I’ve got you. You’re safe.”
As a child, this home, this neighborhood brought so much sadness to my heart. I wanted nothing to do with it.
It reminded me of all I’d lost…
Of the depression.
The trauma of being molested.
The angst.
The sorrow.
The food addiction.
The pain of wanting to just die.
The struggle I felt as I developed gifts…communicating with spirits, seeing portals, channeling deceased relatives…and feeling like I was somehow broken or flawed for being “gifted.”
And so today, I get to celebrate the love this journey, this house, has provided me. 🙏🏼
To see how far I have come since then and to know that I am FREE of all the suffering because I CHOOSE to be.
This house, once finished, will be large enough to host the 30+ people we have for our traditional Villa Family Sunday Thanksgiving celebrations, to film Eat Glow Rise, and to just BE in communion with family and friends over great food, amazing drinks, and deep conversations.
My heart overflows with gratitude 😭😭😭
Cheers! ☕️
Alida is a Transformational Life Coach who’s dedicated her life to teaching optimal wellness through holistic practices. She works one-on-one with clients who are going through transitional periods in life with relationships, health, and business. Her online AlphaZen Academy support clients in a self-paced group format to develop self trust and build effective manifestation skills. Alida also hosts an invite-only, monthly series, Jedi Mindfulness Training, that supports the fullest expression of the Higher Self. To connect with her on any of these offerings, or regarding this article, please contact her at alida@alidamcdaniel.com
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