DailyME 10: Do not live for someone, live for yourself
Do not sacrifice your life for someone’s happiness
I am watching sad fandoms and wishing I could write him
Wishing I wasn’t in this position
Wishing I wasn’t me
Wishing I was stronger
Wishing he hadn’t put me in a position like this
I wish he didn’t make me feel like this
But the thing is, I don’t feel anything right now
I look at the windowsill photo and I feel like the person looking gently back at me isn’t me, it’s someone else
Someone who’s cool and easy and just wanted to have fun
But I didn’t
Maybe because I dressed like I just wanted to have fun on our second date
But then every girl who wears a dress and heels just wants to be kissed by a Spanish boy and make some trouble for both of them
I don’t have his number on my phone anymore
But I do have it written down on a paper somewhere
And even if I was stupid enough to write him, there would be no point
Because he made his choice and made it clear for me
So I can’t be that girl anymore
And also because there are a lot more fish in the sea
And that fish would be lucky to have me haha ))
Even though I am not looking for anything anymore
I feel drained
No more love left in me
Not for men
Not now
Not after this type of experience
***
I live for myself
I am here to make me happy
I am here to make my life beautiful and exciting
And make every freaking moment count
I am here to make memories
Make an impact
Change the world
Do crazy stuff and enjoy it
Do what I love so much and cry because I’m happy, not because some Spanish boy broke my heart
I am here to be the best at what I do
To be the girl I’ve always wanted to be
I am here to kick ass, as hard as I can
I am here to never let anyone take me for granted
I am here to never let another soul scorch mine
And left me there to deal with it by myself
Although I am stronger for it
***
I’m off to being that girl ;)
Ciao lovelies ♥
Have a nice evening
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DailyME 4: Do not take your eyes off the goal
