DailyME 52: There’s a barrier I can’t cross
There’s a step I can’t take
I can’t start dating someone else
Even If I like someone, even it kinda makes sense, even if he’s kind and cute and caring…
I can’t
Because it doesn’t really make sense
Because I am not ready
Not ready to move on, not ready to be in a relationship with someone.
Besides, I want the next relationship to be the last
And it will be
And it will be the love they write books about and shoot movies about
It will be the love like no other
And exactly what I want
It will be everything I’ve dreamt about
But for now…
I am not ready
For anything
But fun with my friends and lots of goals and dreams I still have to fulfill and pursue
It is a shame I hate myself sometimes for the choices I’ve made
It is a shame he is somewhere there and not here hugging me and kissing me with those otherwordly kisses…
But that’s ok…
It was his choice
He said he’d never hurt me, but that’s what they all say
He said I was the last person he wanted to hurt
And he did
So what does it even matter what he said?
Everything was a lie
Strategic move
Manipulation
And I went for it
And I deserve a round of slaps and the constant reminder to never get into a situation like that ever again
That’s why our picture with him (from the second date) is still on my windowsill
It serves as a reminder
To not be an idiot and fall for a guy like that
It serves as a reminder
To not be stupid and take time, not rush into things
It serves as a reminder
To wait for someone who’s worth all the pain I’ve been through
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