all I ever wanted …

I

all i ever wanted was a beautiful intelligent woman who loved me
and then there were two
and i…

my love is not a continuum
my love is not fixed somewhere along the line
does not slide back and forth
forgetting about vis caresses while running towards vers

my desire is quantum
the electrons spinning around
which of them?
no which
only…

an infinite caress

a caress which never ends
and has no beginning
flowing from one body to another
over one shoulder blade
then down the rhythmic spine

an awaiting

i am reaching a level of calm
before an inevitable explosion

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i am hammering at a wall of tears
pounding at the stricken laughter
my breath is ragged
and I am heaving in my sobs

and if i spelled love another way

if i said no to the fixed ink of the written page
and declared that love was as i wanted
multiform and chaotic
polyvalent and evermoving

reaching towards roboto-ness

shows you what a good robot i would make … i was called one once again tonight
perhaps my roboto-ness is what makes me human
my slightly autistic undercurrent of bonhomie
my…

ashes hold no secrets

listen to me sing
listen to the slam of the car doors in the darkness
that will tell you where i’m going

listen to me speak
not to my words
but only to the nervous tone and jagged rythm

into the sun

what will you do now with your infinite eyes?
what can you be looking at?

broken down

i read and i’ve been read
but who will be there when my calm falls
like my hand to the table
like her eyes to the ground