An effort to be chill in an unchill world

The angry people

Chicago and the khaki-fucking-pants

Growing up was hard. I lived in this lala land until I was about 8. For some reason at 8 all this…

Deserving of attention

I realized I had done many things of importance, but nothing really that qualified it seemed as ‘deserving of attention’. I quietly work away. Work might be what I imagine lithium to be like. I love it, but it’s consuming and I can’t think or feel.

Time

I was diagnosed with cancer at an annual check up February 2019. More tests, they said. Surgery, they said.

Anger

As I flow through this process, it’s important to acknowledge the vast amount of anger that exists within me and that I’ve been carrying around for…

I’m so glad I went to yoga

Despite my massive anxiety attack yesterday, I’m so glad I went.

Hope

I’ve never really understood hope, I confess. It seems like one of those idillic and strange words that people like to throw around without really…

Disruption

I remember just looking at the title “Girl Interrupted” and thinking, that’s me. I didn’t even know what it meant, but somehow in my growth…

What will it take?

Whenever I look outward critically at others with addiction I have to take a breath and remember to turn that glance inward…