#3 Eulogy

I continue with the log of the departure of the love of my life. I posted this message to Facebook with the full text of the eulogy.

#167 Learnings

Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we…

#1 Departure

I have kept a log of memories gathered with the departed love of my life that I have been publishing to Instagram. I have started the work to move them to Medium to share them with a bigger audience. As I want to make sure the log is complete, I’m starting with the announcement of her departure.

#44 Remains

Janne was just 44 when she left. This is my 44th post about her. In a life full of coincidences and special moments, it is fitting that I write about yesterday.

When the doctor told Janne the news that no one should ever hear, she told me that she should certainly be cremated. The…

#154 Young

I know the exact moment when I became old. I read somewhere a definition that says that an old person is someone for whom memories are more…

#99

This is my ninety-ninth post. Numbers provide satisfaction in my life. The number 99 gives me the feeling of symmetry, something that Janne and I had…

#108 Hospital

Once Janne knew of her diagnosis, her oncologist put together a weekly plan for treatments. This would need that Janne stayed…

#151 Fears

During all this time without Janne, I am starting to see life from her perspective. I tried to do that while she was still here, but she…

#157 Amor fati

Garden State is one of my favorite movies. We watched it first when we were still in Germany. I connected very much with the story…

#20 TV Tower

I have always liked tall towers and buildings. I feel proud that we live just by the TV Tower in Tallinn. As a fun exercise, I…