Grin and bear it

Sometimes I feel undead. I often liken myself to a vampire. It’s one of the ways that…

Letting go of guilt: a working mama’s confessional

Let’s do the math.

I can’t do this. I can do this.

I sit on my laptop in my open concept office, working through my extensive to-do list two or three items at a time. This is not efficient, but maybe, maybe, it’s the only way I’ll make any real progress on what I’ve been tasked with—maybe this week, I won’t feel like dead…

First Birthday Feels

I just watched my birth video.

You’ll Never Really Know

I always heard it from my mom—you won’t understand until you’re a mom. And I never believed her. I really thought I understood. I knew she had sacrificed. I knew parenting must be hard. I knew I was difficult to manage at times. But I was a good kid, and she was lucky.

Sitting in the Sadness

All the women in me are tired. — Nayyirah Waheed

I started Mamajoon Chronicles over the summer because I wanted to get back into writing, because I feel like the honest voices and perspectives of the cool ass mothers in my life need to be heard, and as a form of…

Am I the most selfish parent?

The day I got my period, after almost two years on the physical journey of motherhood, was devastating. At…

On turning 40

I’ve been thinking about my 25-year-old self a lot lately. I was in grad school, having fun, engaged to a good guy, envisioning a…

Things You Can Never Prepare For…

I got the call this weekend.

Fear

I think about what I want to write as he sleeps in my arms. He has to be touching me now when he sleeps. After many months of fearing co-sleeping due…