My Musings while Moving On

Day 29

I’ve started behaving like a drug addict at times, where I keep having the “withdrawal symptoms”. My brain has started giving/making reasons why I should be talking to him. Trust me, it is a tough exercise to go against your own “intense” thoughts and cravings!

Day 27

I had the first intense craving to talk to him in weeks. I was doing some personal analysis for my interview preparations, and I had to think about the time I spent with him. I ended up being with a lot of intense emotions regarding him and had to write extensively to get rid of those emotions.

Day 23

Less number of posts = Less number of thoughts about him.

Having a really busy time. But his thoughts keep coming in a flash. I’m working and from nowhere — he’s there! Then, I try to get back to work asap!

Day 22

[Late Post]

Had a busy day. Got a bit sick also, so didn’t really enjoy everything. Was busy too, so less about him anyway. But the pinned thought comes alive when I get alone.

Whenever you are alone, you have no choice other than facing yourself. At that time…

Day 2(1)

I know, I know! Why didn’t I write 21 like normal, educated people? 
Reason: I got to talk to him last night and we did finally decide to part ways! So, just to demarcate this new “breakup”, I have mentioned the date as you’re seeing. This will help me to remember this new “phase”!

Day 20

Still very unsettled scenario. He’s going on and off, and I’m not really caring. Things are feeling like stuck in the middle. And I don’t have the enthusiasm of taking “initiatives” anymore.

The kind of brain fitted inside my body-complex doesn’t really allow me to keep things unattended…

Day 19

So, I am generally starting my day and he calls to shuffle my mind. He didn't say anything to make me feel bad. It was my own saturation…

Day 17

Day 16 went missing and I’m glad about it! Got really busy with work and neither did I have the energy nor the time to think about him. And that’s progress!

Nothing of an update though. Still waiting for his answer. The more time it is taking, the more it is feeling like a “no” and the…

Day 15

I am in the process of my interviews for starting my masters and it is really hectic every day. And he tries to stay in touch at this time.

We had a long “relationship-y” chat today and it was good in terms of me being more clear and strong with my understanding. Also, I was not getting…