Senior portraits

28 September 2016

I have to take them tomorrow and it’s making me nervous. I feel like I’ll look so bad in them and I won’t even want to put it as my profile picture because it’s so unflattering. I am literally the least photogenic person ever. I have such a big face and…

Stressing out about friendship

24 September 2016

I feel tension in the air and I hate it. I’m sorry I’m not the person you want me to be. I’m sorry you aren’t the person I thought I wanted you to be. This is like her all over again and I thought it would never happen again but…

Sometimes life is full of jealousy when you feel like you’ve lost something you always believed you’d have.

Can’t fall asleep

16 September 2016

I am anxious right now and can’t fall asleep. I don’t really know why I’m anxious. For the most part, today was a happy day. I laughed a lot and it was fun.

Discard

24 September 2016

“I’m just waiting for the day she discards me because of her idealistic standards.”

Then why does it feel like she discarded me first. I wonder if every day I’ll be regretting those words I said that day. I guess this is when I learn the advantage of white lies.

Maybe I was right, maybe I shouldn’t have tried

31 August 2016

I told my self a while back that I wanted to change myself because I became afraid of caring too much. I was afraid because I know it hurts so much when you feel like you’re the only one that cares.

Nothing left to say

24 September 2016

I never really know what to say to people. Literally I lead such a uneventful life. I don’t really get all that invested into any one topic to the extent that I actually feel super excited talking about it. Especially because most of the time none of…

On the river alone

27 September 2016

In dance we are dancing to the song Medicine. In Contemporary Literature we read Black Man White Woman in a Dark Green Rowboat. I was thinking about these two things today and how it applies to my current feelings.