Signed Out: How my two strokes signed me out of my painstakingly planned medical education

A Remix with Black skin in a White Coat.

A Shakeup. Hold on

“I WANT MY LAWYER!!!!”My neighbor, a delusional man howled at 2 am. He began his delirium usually around dinner. Tonight it had gotten prolonged. The beeping of the vitals machine echoed down the…

Aunt Betty

I departed the hospital this time in October 2021, feeling stronger yet silly. I had truly almost died for my education and thought nothing…

My sink schooled me on my stroke: How life teaches you lessons.

Virgil and Chadwick: I can relate

Two young, black men passed away due to cancer they were getting in silence. They chose to silently suffer.

We all need therapy and a break

I had lost hope. I was ready to give up because I had done nothing besides moving towards the goal of of being a physician. Anything else be damned. I know I’m not the only one, but I was the only that I knew of who almost medically died. 
My old self definitely died. Echoes of old Ash come…

Stress test

There’s nothing like hardship to show you the cracks in your life that need attending to. It’s the ultimate stress test. Like adding physical increasing pressure to square areas of different materials of life’s stresses and struggles will test your vulnerable, unsteady parts of your life revealing the…

Victimhood and Virtue

People do things and expect something in return. They will deny it, but they do. Whether it be in favors or praise, they…

YOU HAVE THE SAME 24 HOURS AS BEYONCÉ

Time
They say time heals all wounds. . I am akeenly aware of what Time is doing 
Time is healing me from my stroke from my AVM,from myself. Time is slipping away...taking a break and changing clothes.Time is disguising herself as an entitlement. No, TIme is a privilege. Time has value…

Build Back Better: Re-building a nervous system

As I read another account of an AVM stroke, I feel seen. The confusion, pain, and readiness to die were not unique to me. I related to her experience first hand. She felt trapped. She, the author, a neuroanatomist, had her stroke young and during…