Why do I feel scared to feel alive?
I’m checking my phone more times than I’d like to admit.
Just a silly crush but I know that’s not it.
And I have somebody at home all the same.
But lately I think of a different name.
If a picture says a thousand words
Then you just wrote the book entirely
Frame freeze.
And in that moment I am back again
And the lights are in my eyes but still I see
Colliding
I’ve met a million faces, each one sure they’re pretty as hell.
I’ve heard a million voices, each one with a story to tell.
We sit there raising our glasses, pretending to see it as something so true.
I’m done for today.
Where’s my pay check?
I’ve worked my mind to the bone.
It hurts to even think of leaving.
I’ve done my share.
I’ve done theirs too.
A crash of thunder fills the silence that otherwise dominates the air.
So fitting that this gust of wind arrives as soon as it’s been knocked out of my sails.
Like a wave crashing against the ocean floor.
Quiet but powerful.
The force breaks you, drifts you.
And sometimes you never see the sun.
Holding out, Been working hard.
Deserving of a treat.
The road behind never slows
In its winding, fleeting kaleidoscope dream
Like a desert wind that blows across my face
You are warm but you are course
If I ever got the chance I’d say
You are really a beautiful force
