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About Me — Sara Fellers
“I must be a mermaid, Rango. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.” — Anais Nin
I started this. And then I stopped.
And then I started again and stopped again. I must have repeated this pattern twenty times over the last three weeks and never finished the first paragraph. For those three weeks, I have been in a war with my own personal grim reaper. The usual demon created between the physical illness plaguing me and the emotional turmoil haunting me. And in the midst of the noise of battle, its hard to focus on anything else.
I kept wondering too: what angle did I want to take for an ‘all about me’ piece? Did I want to make it funny and light-hearted? Did I want to make it honest and touching? Heartwarming? Dramatic with maybe a little morbid humor? Well, during these past three weeks, I was definitely leaning towards ‘morbid.’
Then my head started to clear as I began to win the war. It was enough for me to tell myself to stop letting my anxiety take all the fun out of writing. It’s an ‘all about me’ piece. The only thing I have to do is be honest and remember why I love to write. Writing is a part of me. My constant, dear friend. My companion as I explore my own depths.
