On a recent trip, we boarded our flight in Frankfurt. As we were looking for our seats, a flight attendant looked at me and…
I find myself every day in familiar spaces for Janne and me. I know exactly what she would say about those trees outside, about the color of the chairs, the sun and intermittent rain, the drawings on the wall or that older couple walking out of this cafe. We knew each other.
One evening I told Daniel that it was time to turn off the computer and to get ready for bed. He complained loudly. I got upset and threatened to take away his computer if he was going to have this attitude. He went to have a shower and when he came out he told me, “look dad, I know I looked upset…
My sister made a trip and came back with a little souvenir for me: a book about the making of the film “Lost in…
Junk mailarrives todayI usedto sayinevitably“your papers!”you laughedunavoidablyand devouredthem all.
Trevor has a birthday. I feel apprehensive as Daniel felt sad for a whole weekend after his birthday just a month after Janne died. Trevor is different though: he is as chilled as her.
The last moment when I was worried about Janne’s life before our year of nightmare was during…
I tell friends when someone plays me in a movie. Jude Law plays me in The Holiday as a widower with two daughters. Denzel Washington plays…
I have a record of music I have listened to since 2006. It’s logical that I was curious about what I was listening to when Janne started her job in Kuusalu. And it’s not unusual that I’ll be triggered by any music from my past.
We live on the east side of Tallinn. If I drive, I can be on the highway in minutes. One of the first signs I will see in that road is the one telling me the distance to a town called Kuusalu. And every single time I would love to call Janne to tell her that I’m on my way to her kingdom.
There is something that happens to everyone: you want to do something, walk to another room and realize that you have forgotten…
