Front Matter: What happened and why am I doing this?

I’ve Met Someone

In yet another unexpected twist of my journey, I’ve started dating a good friend (let’s call her K) and am, dare I say, optimistic about what lies ahead.

K has been an important person in my life in the last two years, particularly with respect to my daughter; K’s an early…

The Resiliency of Children

Seems a bit on the nose to talk about how difficult that first Christmas is without your spouse, so I’ll pivot…

Anger.

I got angry at Chelsea for the first time last week, and it was weird.

Let’s start with the obvious: this was a tragic event, and no one is at fault, least of all Chelsea. As my MD friends have said on countless occasions, there was no way any of us could have seen her death coming and…

Lessons from Chelsea: Part 1

While this writing project has primarily served as a space for reflection about grieving and loss, I also…

A Powerful Reminder That You Never ‘Move On’

By most measures, my life in fall 2023 is orders of magnitude better than it was in fall 2020: I’ve done the hard work of grieving, my daughter is doing really well, I’ve found a new partner who is a wonderful human being, my life is settling into a…

25 Years Ago My Life Changed

I can pinpoint a few key moments in my life, moments in which a split second decision or event resulted in a series of consequences that had a huge impact on the rest of my life: a chance conversation in an elevator with someone who would become a lifelong friend; a flyer that…

Feeling Disoriented

A common thread amongst writings and reflections concerning grief is the idea of the individual experience: everyone grieves differently, the emotions unique to the individual.

While that’s certainly true, here’s the part they don’t tell you, or at least the part with…

Grappling with Questions of Death & Existence

I’ve been putting off this piece for a while now, not because I’m necessarily afraid of writing it, but because the issues at hand are so massive, medium blogging doesn’t seem capable of making a dent in them. Still, for the sake of reflection and…