#154 Young

I know the exact moment when I became old. I read somewhere a definition that says that an old person is someone for whom memories are more…

#151 Fears

During all this time without Janne, I am starting to see life from her perspective. I tried to do that while she was still here, but she…

#157 Amor fati

Garden State is one of my favorite movies. We watched it first when we were still in Germany. I connected very much with the story…

#148 In ár gCroíthe go deo

All my t-shirts have two basic themes. There are a few given by Janne about being a dad. The rest are…

#153 Today

Last week, I took Daniel to his physical education class at school. They went skiing. He wasn’t keen on going because he said he doesn’t…

#150 What if

After living more than two years in the cozy Capel Street apartment, we started looking around. Janne found a place in an area called…

#156 Time dilation

Time is a funny thing. Sometimes a day lasts forever, but six months go by in an eyeblink. And time is not the same for…

#160 Birthday

Today, February 24th, was Janne’s birthday. She would have become 45 today. This day is not as hard for me as people would expect. At this stage, we’d already celebrated with her and she’d have received the gift that I had planned since November.

#149 Cigarettes

When I met Janne, she used to smoke. During our breaks in our German course, she’d go out to have one or two cigarettes. I’d get…

#147 Slippery days

The weather in Estonia is fluctuating these days. It gets very cold and then it everything melts. Ice thaws and then it gets…