Day 1

This is going to be hard for some days. For a few days, it is going to feel like sinking in an endless sea of hopelessness.
It feels like a mixture of salt and sugar when you willingly leave a relationship of five years after realizing that it isn’t going anywhere and it isn’t where and what you wanted it to be…

Day 29

I’ve started behaving like a drug addict at times, where I keep having the “withdrawal symptoms”. My brain has started giving/making reasons why I should be talking to him. Trust me, it is a tough exercise to go against your own “intense” thoughts and cravings!

Day 27

I had the first intense craving to talk to him in weeks. I was doing some personal analysis for my interview preparations, and I had to think about the time I spent with him. I ended up being with a lot of intense emotions regarding him and had to write extensively to get rid of those emotions.

Day 2

It was a normal day today. Had a few sudden impulses where I missed him and thought that maybe I’ve done something terribly wrong. We share a common WhatsApp group where his message popped up and it was enough to interrupt my thoughts, though I managed to let that out quickly. But it also felt a bit angry on my…

Day 3

While taking a bath today, I recalled last year’s New Year night (as it is again time for it). I hadn’t thought about it this whole year and when I suddenly recalled it, it was like me getting back to that moment, living it again, but this time, without him. We listened to our favourite chanting together when 2018…

Day 23

Less number of posts = Less number of thoughts about him.

Having a really busy time. But his thoughts keep coming in a flash. I’m working and from nowhere — he’s there! Then, I try to get back to work asap!

Day 22

[Late Post]

Had a busy day. Got a bit sick also, so didn’t really enjoy everything. Was busy too, so less about him anyway. But the pinned thought comes alive when I get alone.

Whenever you are alone, you have no choice other than facing yourself. At that time…

Day 20

Still very unsettled scenario. He’s going on and off, and I’m not really caring. Things are feeling like stuck in the middle. And I don’t have the enthusiasm of taking “initiatives” anymore.

The kind of brain fitted inside my body-complex doesn’t really allow me to keep things unattended…

Day 19

So, I am generally starting my day and he calls to shuffle my mind. He didn't say anything to make me feel bad. It was my own saturation…

Day 4

I don’t know how this works. I don’t know how I’m going to move on. But I am ready to finally do it, even though I still don’t know how I’m supposed to do it.

I feel this hollowness all the time. Like some part of me is enjoying the independence, feeling good and all positive about the…