Day 1

This is going to be hard for some days. For a few days, it is going to feel like sinking in an endless sea of hopelessness.
It feels like a mixture of salt and sugar when you willingly leave a relationship of five years after realizing that it isn’t going anywhere and it isn’t where and what you wanted it to be…

Day 2

It was a normal day today. Had a few sudden impulses where I missed him and thought that maybe I’ve done something terribly wrong. We share a common WhatsApp group where his message popped up and it was enough to interrupt my thoughts, though I managed to let that out quickly. But it also felt a bit angry on my…

Day 3

While taking a bath today, I recalled last year’s New Year night (as it is again time for it). I hadn’t thought about it this whole year and when I suddenly recalled it, it was like me getting back to that moment, living it again, but this time, without him. We listened to our favourite chanting together when 2018…

Day 4

I don’t know how this works. I don’t know how I’m going to move on. But I am ready to finally do it, even though I still don’t know how I’m supposed to do it.

I feel this hollowness all the time. Like some part of me is enjoying the independence, feeling good and all positive about the…

Day 5

It’s been five days already! It feels hard and joyful at the same time. I feel proud because I did something for myself. I took my responsibility in my own hands and removed whatever wasn’t acceptable to me, even after knowing that it can bring a little pain to me.