Sometimes I really miss comfort food.

#60M2IM Day 27/100

Foods I can’t comfortably eat anymore:

• Pasta
• Rice
• Bread
• Steak
• Chicken
• Pizza (see bread)
• Sandwiches (see bread)
• Sugar
• Anything fried
• Anything very cheesey

In other words: Comfort food.

I have basically had a surgery that makes it impossible to eat more than few bites of almost any comfort food.

Does that sound fantastic to you? It takes away the option of binging on chili cheese fries.

I mean. I can’t. Even if I really want to.

I can eat whatever I want. I’m a grown woman. But my body can’t tolerate too much of the foods I’ve had, oh, four decades to teach myself to find comfort in.

Bite one, I’m fine. Bite two, I’m fine.

Somewhere around bite three or four, maybe five if they’re small bites and I chew really well, I get full.

Imagine eating Thanksgiving dinner. Then eating Thanksgiving dinner again. Maybe one more time.

That full.

Not pleasantly full. Not the kind of full where you’ve had enough, but it tastes so good you fit in another few bites.

I’m talking afraid-you’ve-hurt-yourself full. Absolutely-not-one-more-bite full. And it happens from one bite to the next.

Only it still tastes good. My brain still recognizes it as comfort. I’m still learning how to comfort myself without food. I’m getting there.

But sometimes I really miss cake.

It’s still weird. A very, very weird place to be, even almost two years in.

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Shaunta Grimes is a writer and teacher. She lives in Reno with her husband, three superstar kids, and a yellow rescue dog named Maybelline Scout. She’s on Twitter @shauntagrimes, is the author of Viral Nation and Rebel Nation, and the original Ninja Writer.